Alone, she sat in the most secluded corner of the tiny cafe at the end of her street. Her curtain of wavy brown hair hid her face from the many passer-bys at the window, but she could see every one of them. A single tear dropped onto the curly handwriting, and rolled down the furled pages of her leather-coated notebook.
That notebook was, in a way, her own personality. Everything she felt, every tidal wave of emotion, was recorded in that notebook, until to her it was no longer just a notebook. To her, it was an old friend, one that she could tell anything and everything to since childhood. One that witnessed every tear she had shed, her one rope to hold on to as she dangled over the pit of depression. She always had it in her pocket, because she craved the comfort of the worn, faded leather.
Every page she had filled was covered in long, cursive letters that spelled the woes of her life. There were many, transformed from tears to blue ink. Her friend had listened for years, to her rants and her worries. She was teased for the sadness prominent in her gray eyes. She was an open book, a book about desolation and melancholy. Everyone could see it. Sorrow surrounded this girl like an aura.
And so there she sat, her tiny thin legs tucked beneath her, her baggy clothes swamping her figure, her scraggly, unbrushed hair hiding her face, scribbling her soul into the little notebook. It was her passionate addiction. There was nothing she could do to stop writing.
“Your hot chocolate, Miss.” She lifted her face and the waitress saw tears streaking down her face, blotting the ink of the words in her notebook, and felt the overwhelming sorrow that surrounded her. She sat the hot chocolate down, smiled at the girl, and turned away.
As the clock struck two, the girl lifted her pale face once again, and saw the waitress approaching her. She sat silently, listening to her invitation to do something at the park, and for once she nodded, smiled, and replied, “I’d like that.” For once, rejection hadn’t crossed her mind, and for once, her weakly beating heart craved company other than her notebook.
As she was meandering around the duck pond with her first real friend, her notebook slipped from between her long, thin fingers, and she didn’t notice it lying in a puddle. She didn’t notice the muddy water erasing her depressing life story. The girl never found it again, and she was much happier for the rest of her life.
Several years later, the girl was unrecognisable. Her figure no longer showed every bone, her face was no longer pale. There were no bags under her twinkling eyes and her full, healthy, dark hair was spun into a lovely bun. Her long bridesmaid dress showed the healthy, radiant young woman she was now, and the picture of sorrow she used to be was left in a puddle in the park years ago. Her thoughts were glowing as she picked up the long train of her best friend’s wedding dress, and followed the waitress that had changed her life down the aisle.
By Amy